I remember the day I received the telephone call that my husband had “something wrong with his blood”. The next call was from a hematologist who proceeded to tell me that my husband had to go to the emergency room immediately. She said, “Your husband’s hemoglobin is so low that he is at a risk for a heart attack.” The fear that gripped my heart was like none I have ever felt before. I called my pastor to tell him what was happening. I can remember it as if it were yesterday. I said, ” I am so afraid. I do not usually feel this way, but I am very afraid. ”
Later, while my husband was waiting for his transfusion, my pastor and his wife walked in. We visited for a while and the pastor prayed for us. He addressed my fear while talking to God. A calm came over me once again.
Most people who have received the news “you have cancer” or the news that your loved one may have cancer have experienced this same fear. I want to reassure you that you do not have to live with fear. The bible says, “Fear thou not; for I am with thee….” (Isaiah 41:10) God is not a God of fear. You need to be honest with God and tell him you are afraid. Ask God to give you His peace and He will. Each time your fear returns give it to God. Remember that God is walking by your side if you are trusting in Him.