Those words, “God will fulfill His purpose for me”, seemed to go through my mind all day today. These are the words that are on the tombstone of my son’s dear girlfriend. “Who would have thought that this was what God’s purpose for Jany was”, his mom said to me as we stood there shortly after the tombstone was placed. Today, I think God was reminding me that He would do the same for me, if I rest in Him.
A few months ago I allowed myself to fall into the trap of concerning myself with thoughts of “what if God’s will for me now is…” I am glad that I can start this New Year with the realization that my future is in God’s hands. All I have to do is be obedient to Him, love Him and serve Him to the best of my ability. The rest is up to Him. I know that God loves me and can only do what is best for me. He can only do good.
No matter where we are on our journey of widowhood we can cling to that truth. God knew we would be standing in this very place before we did. The same way He had a plan for our husbands, He has a plan for each one of us. We need to listen to His still small voice and take one day at a time. He will walk beside you and guide you each step of the way.
Psalm 138:8 says, “The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me; thy mercy, O Lord, endureth forever…”. As I enter another new year without my husband at me side, I am so thankful that I do not have to worry about the pathway of my life. I just have to follow.
I pray that each one of you that are reading this can find that same peace as well.